Nice rhyme. I have to agree with aka. Get out in the wind and chop and put in the time. It will all gradually start coming together and you'll start using the paddle without even thinking twice about it. Have faith my friend. Keep at it at it WILL all come together. We've all gone through that learning curve and seen others go through it, the one day it all clicks and your using the paddle with skill and the wind and chop won't bother you any more.